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Aliases: kasai(X3), MastadonX3, leJean(X3)
Current Residence: Tokyo, Japan
Current work: Illustration for smartphone games.

*I will not do comics for hire. If I do comics, it will be my own stories. If its commission related work, I might be free depending on my schedule.

I dont think Ive ever spilled anything personal in my journal before but I somewhat feel the need to. Ive been feeling burned out with low motivation for doing artwork and I hate myself for it.
Balance between art for work and personal work has been rocky, and money has been scarce. The amount I work vs. reward has been way off balance. 

I feel stuck between either, going back to doing extra company artwork for money, which will leave me no energy for personal works, or I keep going as is. In July, I did a little more extra artwork to add more money to the paycheck but that last week drained the crap out of me. Adding to the work vs. reward, I just havent been happy with quality of my work. 

A lot of bullshit creeps into the mind, past regret, fear for the future, not accepting my current circumstance, overwhelming feelings, impatience etc. Im in constant battle with my own thoughts where I almost always lose. I feel like Im losing the joy of it all slowly.  

Looking at the things to be grateful for, Im a foreigner who works in Tokyo as a card game illustrator for smartphones, I get to draw all day which is much better than what I was doing before, I have a roof over my head, I have money to at least buy food, I still have my hands. Between Patreon and Gumroad, its helped a bit with the money situation. I really thank all my supporters.

I feel somewhat of an asshole for sharing my 1st world problems. But even so, the thought of having lost my motivation scares the crap out of me. I just want it back.
Looking around for motivation articles, this one in particular struck a cord with me-->Killing the 7 motivational murderers…
Im getting murdered by just about all of them. I hope I can put this into practice.  

EDIT: I wanted to add that I still want to work towards my goals(the logical brain I guess), but when I sit down to actually start something, the joy is only half there. Discipline and motivation seem to be conflicting along with all the BS going through my head. 

About commissions
I apologize for this, but Im going to have to decline anybody who asked for a rough colour commission before the close. I totally underestimated the time it would take to finish each one and it just doesnt equal the amount of money. Im thinking of giving you guys a free item off my store as an apology. Though slowly, I will continue with anybody who asked for sketch/lined commission. 

  • Listening to: Elliot Hulse
  • Reading: Motivation articles
  • Watching: NA
  • Playing: Life (not the board game)
  • Eating: Convenient store food
  • Drinking: water



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SethEyles Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your art inspires me.
Have a Llama give Give Me A Llama 
TheKillerAngel Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Are you still working on commission batches?
kasai Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Professional Artist
Ive closed them but I still have yet to get back to the ones that sent an inquiry before closing. Ive been quite burnt out between work, commissions, and Patreon so Ive been taking a break to ease back into everything. 
TheKillerAngel Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
That's cool, I understand the feeling.
Dok-aLeXa Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2015  Student Digital Artist
I really adore your figures and gestures in those figures.
Your style, overall, is awesome and inspiring.  I always love stopping by to see what's happenin' here. :D
gintuk Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2015
Great arts!!
j-u-nice Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2015  Professional Artist
Hey Rejean, wow man, your style has gained even more flow since the last time i peeped you on the dev months ago.  Keep it up man, it's making me sharpen my fangs more and more.
ColorOfInsanity Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2015
Hello, I've been browsing your gallery and really enjoying your art. Do you have any videos? Maybe speed paintings or tutorials?

Thank you :)
Oliriv Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
in your deviations I can see incredible art, incredible character designs and a lot of creativity :D
yezuus Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2015
Hi, I was wondering if you could confirm your drawing process for me.  From my understanding you do a bunch of studies of figures from sites such as pixelovely,  portrait and paintings studies, etc trying to incorporate that into your mental library but when you're coming up with your own work you mainly work from imagination particularly for the poses and facial expressions but then you might look up reference for the costume design? 
kasai Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2015  Professional Artist
Yes thats right. 
It really depends on how familiar I am with the subject matter. Even with the human body, if its a hand gesture, pose, etc that Im not familiar with, Ill pose in front of a mirror or look for an image that resembles what Im looking for. Anything that Im not familiar with, whether it be a design archetype, anatomy, etc. I will search for refs to get a better understanding.
Hope this helps!
yezuus Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2015
When you find the reference of an image do you simply analyze the image in your head then put it away or are you looking at it while you draw ?
kasai Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2015  Professional Artist
Its never an absolute. When I use a mirror, I have to take it all into my memory then sit back down and get to it. If Im not sure, Ill get up again and pose in front of the mirror. Images on the other hand, are easy to keep on the side the whole time youre working. For example, the material for leather. I would keep several refs open while working while I try to understand how the material works at the same time. Sometimes I think that putting an image away after youve looked at it (much like standing in front of a mirror) can help strengthen your memory.
Djake Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist

Hey there RéJean,

I just dropped in to say: welcome to :iconblackartsociety: ! I really love your digital style!  I'm sure plenty of novice digital artists (like myself) in our group will enjoy checking out your technique and admiring the finished products.  We're looking forward to seeing more of you.

kasai Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2015  Professional Artist
Thank you! It is an honor. Im looking forward to seeing what comes out of the group!
Djake Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm constantly amazed by (and occasionally envious of) the skill that many of our members bring to the table.  That may sound like bragging - but, honestly, the quality is all down to our members.  I'm just fortunate enough to be one of the folks who helps spread the enjoyment around.
While you're enjoying the imagery, please feel free to comment and otherwise join in the fun!
WhiteVanille Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Wow. I dream with becoming a game artist and your character designs, your anatomy and dynamic poses... I just love everything, it's the kind of style I always wanted to achieve. I wish I could take lessons from you or something, you're amazing. You just inspired me to try harder, I'm watching you for sure.
kasai Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2015  Professional Artist
Thank you! Ill have to do my best. 
Though Im not teaching, I do have a Patreon where I share my step images, PSDs, and timelapse video.
vaisakhp Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, can you put up some sketching tutorials? Maybe in deviantart or youtube.
kasai Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2015  Professional Artist
Im in the process of making a tutorial for Lola. Lola Sketch by kasai  I hope that I can finish it soon!
vaisakhp Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks a lot...... :)
Ovilus Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2015
I really love your art! you are awesomee :)
Oceandepth Featured By Owner May 27, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi, awesome art. Do you use the smudge tool when coloring?
kasai Featured By Owner May 28, 2015  Professional Artist
Not at all. I turn down the hardness of the brush to smooth things out. 
Oceandepth Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks, I'll play around with it.
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